// confrontation//

I’m just laying in my bed. Freaking out about a boy that cares to much lately. You know when a boy start liking you he wants to do so many things for you and he is so sweet. When people start treating me like that I freak out. I can’t stand it when people are being nice for me, and I never knew why. It feels really silly and fucked up because everyone wants to be treat lovely. But I don’t. When people start careing  to much I freak out and I push them away. And now I know why. My mother is a borderliner and she always treated me like shit no matter what I did she always treat me like shit but she did this only to me for other people she was an angel. So I thought that’s my life I take good care for people and they treat me like shit. Maybe I just can’t receive love anymore. But what’s life without love?